This time of the day is when the vibration heightens and the frequency becomes clearer.
When the television is on and you are drinking water and tea to calm down. Or pop. Might be junking out at this hour
Is when you are tired yet that pull keeps you up and earlier in the day you was telling yoself like
I’m a go to sleep early tonight. I gotta break this habit.
Then this time rolls around and eyes are bloodshot body is aching and you think of what started this habit
And you stay up longer…thinking…
Maybe I should replace you with I and be honest.
Actually you replace you with I and find yourself in these lines.
It’s been a killing across the board, a slaughtering of innocent people health issues riddling the bones and taking over the body addictions overcoming the spirit
People are going missing
By Death or Abduction.
it has been
for us all.
Maybe I should replace your pain with mines
Or my Season with yours.
We can have a lunch date and smile through our losses…
healing after death.
Maybe I can cheer myself up enough to stop wearing jeans and two French braids
To remove anger from my response and step out more into the forfront maybe…
I can recover salvageable pieces of myself inside of my grief stricken vessel, clean them up and display them again…
I can get my nails done and go outside in the sunshine…instead of sloshing through puddles, bracing storms…
Maybe I can open my parka in a blizzard and be picture perfect
I will makeover the makeup that has caked my face
Makeup being sorrow
Sorrow feeling chronic
Today…earlier today I received the true meaning of Ecclesiastes One
To be angry
To mourn…and it’s not 24-hour time is ticking a time to mourn…
It’s we are starting in 2010
and still pushing through
We must still forge on.
Grief and I became friends when I was nine years old
I learned of the passing of my nana
I cried in my grandmothers lap
We are familiar
Grief and I
Stay up some nights
These are our Special Moments.
Then I sleep…at some point
I wake up…thankfully
I Push Through.