Poem two

Feels lighter

today

Better than yesterday

When you first passed away and I was torn into shards at the foot of my bed.

Smells clearer 

This Air

Rather than the smog that filled my nostrils when I heard of your passing 

Choked the life out of my right hand til I thought I wasn’t supposed to write anymore.

Got through these obstacles.

I did.

Got over you not being an arms reach away

got through the panic attacks of my own death

I dug deep in my pain

Didn’t make you an excuse I made you a martyr in my heart dying daily to save me you did

Through grief 

covers like a comforter sweating the bad germs out of my body I recovered from the flu season

Which was your passing…

So many of you have left me standing here

Alone and angry and confused and disgusted and fearful and distrusting and all over the place 

No Stability 

Has left me because of your addiction…your lifestyle, your health…because God felt it was time and who can tell God wait

No Discipline 

Has Left.

During grief…

The passing

Going Home 

Transitioning 

Resting 

Kicking the Bucket

Getting murdered  

Still

There are tears unfamiliar that drop 

Time has passed and it feels like I can touch the day you died your death is so real.

Unbelievable 

Dare we move another day and not give thanks for those lives we were allowed 

In rhythm and blues we sustain 

We listen to the music that heals and dance silently 

Let tearful memories flow peaceful 

Purpose seeps out of fingertips and we heal

The birds chirp and you hear the wonders of God

Give Praise.

Your life is temporary.

Give thanks. 

Our lives are temporary.

It’s morning we made it. 

Love.

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About monalisasrandomthoughts

I craft people poems. I laugh out-loud. I love all things. Everything is about order. My movements are chess. Everything to me calculates. I just look like this.
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